Yesterday I had an urgent skype call with Carla, I found out my “idol” friend suddenly passed away.
“Idol” friend – as in I wanted to be like him, wanted to see everything the same direction as him. To make it short, I wanted to be his twin. He was my first friend when I moved to his town, and at that time, I was hiding within myself. He inspired me about everything, he was everything to me that I needed. I didn’t want anyone, or to be like anyone but him. His outlook on life, advice he gave, how much he lived it up – I never had anyone in my life that interesting.
I feel so bad for the cruel life he had. It was a struggle for me when he was sad, because I wanted to take whatever it was inside and fill it up with encouraging love. I’m left alone to be strong. I have to grow into the person I am meant to be when the most inspiring person I want to be beside myself is gone.
There’s never enough time to spend with the right people while they are here with us, it seems. I sent him a message that I loved him, and I bought a ticket for this summer to see him before he left. I feel alone. I’ve never had to be this strong for myself. I wasn’t prepared.
Leaving me with a heavy heart and a broken self, I went to Carla with questions, peace, hope, closed off from my world. I almost thought it was too soon to have answers and feel peace, but the timing was perfect – she was able to connect with my “idol” and bring me peace… help my grief with his passing. (I’m sure Carla helped him more than anyone did in his time. He was able to let it out, and not hold back.) I hurt for him, but I can’t live in his hurt. I was going to actually do that for a long time. He was taken too soon from me. But I learned new things about heaven, angels, the power of love and God.
I light two candles now, and watch the light dance. It’s not goodbye, it’s not forever.. it’s one day at a time and they are near…
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